Today’s poetry offering stems from a very real prayer between my heart and God’s ear recently. As the attitude in our country becomes more and more “non-Christian” I realize how precious the freedom to choose the God I worship is to me. If faced with denying God or losing my life I believe I am a Christian strong enough to choose Him through the end. If faced with denying God or my child’s life ending my confidence is shaken. I am her mother. My job is to nurture her into a young woman whose faith chooses God. Some costs are greater than our own lives. How about you? What shakes your confidence?
It’s an uneasy feeling that arrives
When I think of facing the decision,
Either denounce You and live or
Claim You as God and die.
I hope I can face that and do You proud,
Speaking Your name clear and loud.
Giving You my own life’s final breath
I believe I can do that without wavering,
My spouse and child will understand,
But there’s a weaker spot they can reach.
I pray it’s one I never have to face,
For it’s one of a very different race.
What if Lord, they threaten my child?
Even knowing they most likely will lie,
Promising her life if I deny You,
Will I, as her mother, be able to not go wild?
Will I proclaim You are the Lord God Almighty?
Refuse to deny You are God for all eternity?
How did You stand back God, when man,
Came dragging Jesus off for false charges?
How did You keep Yourself from stopping them?
These leaders of false teaching and corrupt man?
Only You could be that brave and right,
To assure us the chance to see His light.
Lord, I am not You.
Take me first.