Quiet here in our Cottage by the Sea tonight
The moon and stars our only light
I lay and listen to the crashing sea
Wondering why You’ve said no to me.
Is it due to some secret sin I’ve committed?
Or some obedience I’ve omitted?
Does wickedness root itself inside
Or have I failed You on the outside?
The question haunts me day and night
Will you help to set me right?
After all the pain befallen me
This final cost seems too much to be.
Why me Lord, I want to beg to ask
Why give me this horrid task?
Then you look at me and say
You ask the wrong questions to light the way.
Ask instead why NOT you my child
Suffering comes without respect from great to mild.
As does mercy, love and grace
Can you allow My peace in this place?
I mourn a bit the things I’ve lost
Then remember Your complete cost.
Tomorrow morning the sun may rise
Turn my ears now from Satan’s lies.
Let me push beyond my expectations
And rise instead to the situation.
For Your no is not meant to be mean
It’s an example of glory yet to be seen.
The moon casts silver upon the floor
A light in the darkness to the door
The choice is now mine to make
Will I moan and groan, is my faith a fake?
Or will I trust in Your work and way
See Your love expressed in the no You say?
Be You my strength and confidence
You Lord, are my truest defense.
D.f.a.v. 8 / 26/14