At my weakest

Satan strikes

His voice taunting me

“Can’t get it right?”

“You’re such a bother!”

“That’s what you see!”

“Give up and let go!

“Set yourself free!”

Thinking is hard

I know one thing

Must pray, pray for me!

While I pray, my soul sings.

Still Satan taunts me

“You ruin everything!”

“They’d be better off without you.”

His words doubt brings.

So I lay here

Feverish nightmare

Praying, “God don’t let me.”

My heart laid bare.

My prayers are heard

The battle is won

Jesus steps up front

Satan is done.

Nonetheless I am weak

From the fever and fight

Sleep finally comes

I sleep on in Light.

        d.f.a.v. 9/13/13

Many people question whether or not Christians can be victims of depression, anxieties, phobias, and even thoughts of suicide. I am here to tell you, “Yes they can”! Depression and anxiety are two mental/emotional issues I’ve battled for a lifetime of 49 years. Thoughts of suicide periodically. These thoughts don’t erase my salvation. These diagnosis don’t wipe my name from the Book of Life. If not for the presence of Jesus in my heart I would have given up decades ago.

If you wrestle with any mental/emotional disorder or diagnosis and you are already a Christian I offer you this word of encouragement, “You are not alone in your struggle and DON’T GIVE UP!”

If you happen to be reading this and you are not a Christian I encourage you to think or rethink on that decision. Christians aren’t perfect and we don’t escape being human but we can always turn to God whose strength and grace is sufficient for all things.”

“…there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:7b-10 N.I.V.)

Still fighting,

–Faye